*happy*

heehee... Just got back from my photo shoot~!

Although about 70% of my savings is gone, I'm quite ok with it. To me, its money well spent ^^

I got to dress up as a bride! Oh my.. My hair was done so nice.. Simple but gorgeous. I like the french lace dangling from e back with the flower~

I wanna look like that when i get married.. Perhaps even nicer!

I hope i'll look nice >.<

*crosses fingers*

Must wait for another 2 weeks before i can see the end product. Must learn how to pose tho.. Haha..

"Tilt to the left... no no no... not so much... ok... Chin down.. Shoulders face there... Ok.. Look at me... Smile~!"

Maybe catwalk is easier... =/

Please let my photos be nice nice........................

Oily

Just went for a spa with the girls~! so shiok.. fell asleep during the hot wrap.. But now i'm totally covered with ginseng cream.. haha.. Not sure how i'm going to shower later. Wonder if dear will help me scrub my back =)

Hee..

Too bad dear cannot join me. I know he's aching from head to toe =/ Poor baby. Next time must earn enough for us to go to couples spa together =)

Banyan Tree................

Where's my Banyan Tree... lol


Lalala.. I'm happy.. blissful...

*blessed*

Ass.

Mei da mei xiao.

I HATE INVESTMENT MANAGEMENT~

zzz... stupid course... how the hell am i going to get 60 and above >.<

*screams*

Friday classes never fail to piss me off.. Especially the afternoon one. Went for a run once i came back to blow some steam off.

Was quite relaxing.. listening to techno n running. But my legs were on fire after 1 round. haha.. so stopped n came back up. Now having a headache.. giddiness suddenly engulfed me =/

I wonder whats for dinner. Hope its fish beehoon, milk many many. haha..

Dear started work le. Yay... *eyes greedily @ his paycheck* heehee...

Going for a portfolio shoot on Wednesday. Nervous. Not sure how i am suppose to pose n smile. haha. And suddenly all my savings gone. As if my financial status wasnt bad enuf. Hope wont need to use too much of my mommy's ang bao money and i can get some nice jobs.

But its so exciting~! A chance to capture my "youth". All those dreams about being a model is surfacing.. haha.. Must occasionally dream a bit ma..

Imagine my face on buses.. On billboards.. On teebee... *w00ts~!*

-continues to dream-

Dont mind me... lol.. I'm waiting for my dear to come home =)

I dont like to force u to do things u dont like.
I dont like to argue with u.
I HATE to see u broke.
I cant help wanting to help u to go earn some money.
I dont want to see u without dreams and ambitions.
I cant help thinking you're wasting away ur life.
I want to have concrete plans, plans on which i can depend on.


I want to stop myself from meddling in ur stuff, but i just cant seem to do it. Because u seem to have grown so impassive about everything around u.

I dont like to quarrel with dear but i guess all relationships comes with that..

I just want to be happy... I want it to be like the old days.. when we just lie in bed in the dark after dinner n talk about everything.. and feel so sad cos time is running out and i have to rush home. I leave relunctantly but at least i know we were going to c each other soon. Those were the honeymoon days i suppose..

Older = more responsiblities = more maturity.

Do i have the level-headedness to proceed with my life? Do i have the sense to be working in the banking line?

I dont think i do.

It seems like when i'm happy, he is perhaps doing things to suit me... going out of his way to make me happy.

Which is not very gd for him, is it?

Have i been spending too much money? That was why i tot about the boots for so long.. I shouldnt have bought it.. I doubt i'll be buying the wallet le. No point.. maybe i buy a nice pouch.

I know i'm not very smart.. I do things w/o thinking but it doesnt mean i dont care. I stopped playing maple cos i wanna be more productive with my time. But that isnt happening either. I should start studying.

I just wanna know what lies ahead of us. Concrete plans.. Plans i can count on.
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I love u dear. I just want to be happy with u.

dammit.........

I think i have a severe problem.....

I CANT PASS THE FREAKING STAGE OF LOTR... zzzz... stupid ghosts...

lol.... Refused to play maple and was tired of bumming around.. so decided to play some PS2 games... Was stuck at NFS so wanted to try another one... lotsa luck with that one -.-

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Anyways, i'm looking forward to the coming year... I think yr 2007 will be a fantastic year for me.. or so i hope..

I'll be graduating (hopefully with decent results)
I'll be getting my new hse so away i go from all the nonsense here...
I'll be prolly getting married? engaged....

As despo as it sounds, i really cant wait to get married..

I cannot wait to design the hse together..
I cannot wait to be Mrs Sia..
I cannot wait for the time dear proposes to me..
I cannot wait for the moment the priest (?) says "i now pronounce u man & wife"
I cannot wait to start building a family together with the man i love..
I cannot wait to be officially with him.. and spend eternity with him.. and brave thru storms together..

And as bo liao as it is...

Spend the night together... as his lawfully wedded wife

=)

Just thinking about it chokes me up..


But i dunno whats is dear's plan..

Does he wanna marry me b4 the hse is done?
Does he have any concrete plans?
If he studies, even in SG, we gonna get married still?

I wanna iron out these questions, but talking in all seriousness will only prolly scare him off.. And the timing always seems to be wrong..

But i guess dear has an idea of what he wants to do i guess... or i hope..

Dont wanna make him angry by asking too many questions.. Maybe he'll start work in Jan? Dec? We could use the money.. perhaps then i can stop my tuitions? And work on my studies.. Must do well...

Oh wells....... Nothing i can do now.. except wait.. =)