Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.

Dear is now at a crossroad in life.. a fairly important one actually. To study overseas or not.

Lotsa friends asked me this before.. If ur other half go study overseas, u how? laughs.. I also dunno actually. Been thinking about it for such a long time.

Its definitely not in my nature to stop him from going so yes, i'm encouraging pushing him to go for it. And there's no buts.. I dont want/like to be in the way of something that can really bring about a big change to his life (and maybe ours?)

If he's doing law, he'll be gone for 5 yrs? Thats almost as long as we have been together.. lol.. His reasons for not wanting to go is that we wont be around (or rather he wont be around) to accompany each other thru the crucial/momentous stages of our lives.

-Like me moving to my new hse next yr.. he cant help w the renovations, moving, choosing tvs, beds, linen..
-Wont be around to celebrate my 22nd to perhaps 26th birthdays n his 23rd to 28th (?) birthdays..
-Wont be around when i get my first job, first paycheck..
-And we definitely cant get engaged/married next year.. lol..

Actually i feel e same way too....... Deep deep deep deep inside it would really suck if he goes away.. Like deep heart wrenching pain.. Jus thinking bout sending him off kills me.. lol

And there is this eventuality that we might not even survive this long distance thing. Its a fact, whether we like it or not. Being apart for so long honestly doesnt help a relationship. lol..

But i jus really really want him to go cos its good for him. Period.

He has a chance to do what he wants. Like me, he's been just cruising through life (i still am) and its good that he finally has the drive to do what he wants.

On the other hand, it maybe good if he does go overseas.. cos i can then take the easier way out and be an air stewardess. lol.. It be cool to live the jet set lifestyle.. See the world (in between flights.. lol)..

Hiya.. dunno bah.. another meaningless post. Guess its really not a decision thing since there is nothing to decide afterall. I'm jus troubled.. no... perplexed.

Go bah dear.. Go be somewhere else besides this suffocating town.

And i'll be here waiting =)

Just buy LV/ Dior/ diamonds for me when u become a hotshot lawyer! ^^

Been so sick for the past 3 days =/

When everyone was enjoying their deep slumber or the Arsenal Real Madrid match.. i was running in and out of the toilet from 12 to 7+... puking n diarrhoea-ing... Was so tired of running to the toilet, i slept on the couch outside(nearest to the damn toilet), even comtemplated nodding off in the toilet itself... =(

It was so bad man.. Was dehydrated and tired as hell.. I seriously hate to puke.. all the bits of food and stomach acid will go up ur nose n be stuck there... Yucks.. Disgusting.

Dear brought me to e doctor first thing in e morning. Why does the doctor only come in at 820 when the clinic opens at 8?! Grrr.. its bad karma to let sick people wait u know =/

Anyway, i got a jab and bunch of meds (which is finishing) and ate crap tasteless food since. Except when dear cooked my porridge yesterday.. nice... =) Yesterday his family had birthday celebrations and there was CRABS! i couldnt go cos i was running a fever.. They da bao-ed a whole crab back for dear... my saliva glands were in overdrive as i watched him eat the pepper crab. AHHH.... THE AGONY...

I have cravings for soo many damn things! Pepper Crabs, Nissin Chilli Crab Cup Noodles, Brownies, Ice cream, Fruits, Ba Chor Mee, Fried chicken wings.... etc... I jus want tasty food!

Boohooo.... Might go back to see the doctor again cos i dont seem to be getting well... hiaz.. Damn u lousy stomach!

I cant wait for "So you think you can dance?" on channel 5 on 20th March!

Makes me feel like putting my dancing sneakers on! Heehee... Wish i could have pursued a career as a professional dancer >.<

But of course.. the singapore system REALLY allows us to pursue our dreams. *jealous*

And people, please please watch American Dad on thursday 12 midnight on channel 5! Its like fucking funny and its better than simpsons! Parodies of many stuff worldwide! Dick Cheney, terrorism.. muahaha.. Hilarious i tell u...

[i think channel 5 should endorse me! I'm such a tv addict..]

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Random Rants:

From now on i'd be studying studying studying! Accounts.... yucks.. Must encourage me ok everyone? If not i'll slack off after a while de =/ Hope i can do well... And that my brother can get me internship at GIC..

Plus my phone is spoilt! Cant hear anything when people call.. and smtimes it auto blanks out or the screen becomes all fuzzy de. So everytime people call, i gotta reject their call then call back! Irritating. This phone jus slightly more than 1 yr old only so fast spoil le..

Not sure if i should repair or change phone tho... Hopefully it stays ok when i bring it for trade in when e guy is checking it.. haha..Wanna get a cheap flip phone. Perhaps razor v3? But i dont really like e pink leh.. Then i go and zhng myself like xx.. haha..

Any suggestions anyone?

And i feel like eating Brazil (topside!) and getting a massage~! *bliss*

Yay!!

I'm sooooooo happy my cake went great! Havent baked anything since peanut cookies bout 3 yrs ago. Is not i dont want to bake.... but got no oven =/

Now... i just hope it pass the taste test.. heh..

Thanx elaine dear! -hugs-

Will Post(ed) pictures tmr.. after dear has blown out his candle... =) Happy birthday darling.. I hope u'll like the cake.. and that it taste like THE chocolate cake that u had..

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Nerve-Wrecking Time!

[Baking in progress] Was so so afraid it'll chao ta.. kept checking on it.. Smelling the air.. Plus i had to rush to lessons. So i had to leave the 2nd half in e oven unmanned! Seems like re-enactments of fire breakouts, no? lol..

TADAH~~!!!!!

FINAL PRODUCT!

Nice..? nice??! But i think it looks nicer than it taste. hee...

Flaws: A lil drier than i expected and not as fudgy as i expected (must not sting on heavy cream)

{receipe asked for 220 ml of heavy cream but they only sell in packets of 200 =/}

Had extra chocolate fudge so i made chocolate coated strawberries! Aphrodisiac, no? hee... It was sooo gd! I liked it more than e cake! haha..

Haha.. definitely have lotsa room for improvement... so till next time! =)

DEVASTATED.





Why? Why must he treat us like that? Granted, there are moments that would tempt him to betray us..... But isnt the memories, the happiness enough to make him want to stay by our side forever?

I tried to look at him w/o any prejudice, always giving him the benefit of doubt. Thinking that it is not possible. And that he is just a really busy man.... Fuck that. Whatever.

Then again, i'm the stupid one for always thinking the better of him. Isnt it obvious? Perhaps its cause i respected him and chose to ignore all the tell-take signs presented to me.

He lied to everyone. EVERYONE. Created strife..... Is that that worth it dad? Is it worth it to ruin everything? Jus for someone?

I just hope ur happy now..... cos enjoy it while u can. One day, i'll let everyone know what u did and let them see ur true colours....

Seriously.. i wonder if u'll burn in hell.

Granted, the chinese character of 'hui' isnt the same... but its not everyday you see ur name printed on the back of somebody's shirt. haha...


Bimbo Post:

I've decided to curl my hair when it grows longer! Heh.. Tried with a DIY set on sunday.. And i like it! But my hair takes a painfully long time to grow, so i'll probably get a new hairstyle only in Sept =(


Nice ma? If nice, i'll put it at my start up page also. heh.. Cheers (at the back) is so pretty..

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The CNY bustle has finally died down.. and Valentines' day is around the corner. For some weird reason, i just dont feel the excitement. -shrugs- Maybe cos i'm getting old.. lol..

Lessons are finishing.. School Revision Exercise is starting.. Mock exams are in 3 weeks.. Real exams are in 2 mths. Ahhh... And i'm still not studying! tsk... Plus i havent even gotten down to copying my accounts notes!

I'm really the Queen of Procrastination. sigh..


PS. i've decided to do away with my tagboard cos it expired and i'm too lazy to sign-up again. ^^